4.22.14

sometimes i am straight up honest with God.

(and tonight is one of those nights)

i understand that hard times produce perseverance. and that it builds faith and trust.

but right now, the word i got for ya is tough.

and then the Lord is glorified because i run to Him.

knowing He's the only one with answers and comfort and love. 

i've learned that alot.. especially since Heather's death.

risk.. taking risks. putting yourself out there.

you'll just never know until you do it. 

but talk about vulnerable. 

dang. 

that'll show ya the tough spots.

the past 4 months have been the best, but definitely trying.

God has shown me so much about myself and so much about Him. 

He's shown me how to love.

He's shown me how my mission and passion in life can be found in my own city.

He's placed incredible people in my life who've taught me SO many great things about Himself and His character.

but then i've also learned this: what i hear and know, i am held accountable for. 

(it's a lot to take in at once)

God's teaching me new things and then giving me opportunities to apply them right away. 

and through all of this, once again, i'm forced to run to God.

to pour my heart out to Him. 

and boy have i done just that. 

and He listens and weeps with me. 

praise the Lord. 

growth. growth. growth.

so much closer to the Lord.

times are sohardthough. 

but i can say this, i'm thankful.

i wish i was over this bump in the road. 

but the hard will only keep coming. 

and thankfully the Lord died for it ALL.

praises.

i pray that i can take all i've learned and continue to apply it and i pray i am reflecting more of who He is everyday. so that others may see and know and be set free. all for His glory and honor.

amen.

draw near to the Lord and He will draw near to you.
(hmm, love that. so much comfort in those words.)