[where my trust is without borders]

Lately, I've been struggling to trust Jesus. But it isn't with everything. Just with the hard stuff. Ya know?

Honestly, I've been struggling with my future and what He has in store.
I'm not a huge fan of surprises. I don't like the unknown much.
But I know that through my struggles to trust Him, I'm growing closer to Him. Because I have no choice but to LOOK to Him.

And the good thing is, the Lord is okay with our struggling. He struggles and suffers with us.
And He gets giddy because He knows we'll have to look to Him because He's the only one with all the answers. What a sneaky guy, right? ;) He's got this whole sovereign thing down.

I've been learning that the Lord is okay with us telling Him we need help. I cannot tell you how many times I tell God I need help trusting Him, believing in Him, or even wanting Him. And He can take it! I love that.

Lord, I need your help trusting You.
I need your help realizing YOU have my future and you're the best one to have it.
I need your help leaning on You.
I need your help with actually releasing and giving things to You.
My future is not mine, it's Yours. May I never lose sight of that.

So today instead of seeing the negatives and the hard things I choose:

to embrace the truth (not the lies).
to trust YOU.
to lean on You.
to look to You in all situations.
to BELIEVE You are good all the time.
to believe You are the way, the truth, and the light.
to not worry about what You already have under control.

I'm not saying it's easy but these are things I know that I need to trust Him for.
Thankyou that you're so gentle and merciful with us.
Wow. How much I appreciate that.

But I can't do this all alone. Would you challenge me in this? And I'll challenge you in the ways you need to be challenged and drawn to the Lord. We're in this together, people. :)