Week 4 - Intimacy with God

Week 4 - Intimacy with God

I want to love Jesus more than I ever have before! I want to never be satisfied with my relationship with Jesus - never think I'm done knowing Him. If He were to come to me tonight and ask me to drop everything and follow Him, I want to want to do that more than I've ever wanted anything before. As Francis Chan says in Crazy Love, "Many of us believe we have as much of portion of God among all the other things in our lives." That is sad. I'm sorry, Jesus. You don't deserve that! I want to want Jesus more than I want to travel with a band - and I don't. I have to change that - it's a change of lifestyle and heart. Jesus deserves everything and I don't give Him that (I know I've said that a lot but it's a true realization). Forgive me, Jesus? I want to be at the point where I'm head over heels for Him. I'm definitely not there but I feel so much closer than before DTS. (I feel so much closer to Him even after this week.) I'm not giving up! He doesn't give up on me and I'm not giving up on Him. I'm not giving up on following His wonderful plan for me! I'm so excited! I want to be at the point where I want no one and nothing more than Him. He is the only thing that is everlasting and always true to His word - why would we want anything else?! I'm going to get there.. through intercession, worship and reading His word! Get to know the character of God like you would get to know a guy/girl who's your best friend. I debate whether it's worth knowing God. It's just sad and I wanna change that! God, give me more of a hunger, thirst and desire for you please..?

I love my friends and family in Compassion and the other schools on base! And I love Kona! Spending time downtown makes me so happy! It's hard to say no whenever someone asks me to hang out or a group of friend is going to get froyo downtown. I just LOVE people! But I realized this week that love that more than I love and cherish time with Jesus. I would choose friends over Him.. that's a problem! I constantly ask myself, "How do I love Jesus more? How do I get to that point?" I constantly ask myself that. Well, how do I love a human more? I get to know them, what they like, their personality, etc - Jesus is the same way and He WANTS time with me more than anything! How can I say no to that?! He WANTS me. He LONGS for time with me! That is so beautiful and just irresistible! But this week (as in 11/4/11) I've learned so much more! I've been trying to spend more time with Him!

"When we work for God Christ out of obligation it feels like work. But when we truly love Christ, our work is a manifestation of that love and it feels like love!"

"O God, I have tasted Thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more. I am painfully conscious of my need for further grace. I am ashamed of my lack of desire. O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee; I long to be filled with longing; I thirst to be made more thirsty still. Show me Thy glory, I pray Thee, so that I may know Thee indeed. Begin in mercy a new work of love within me. Say to my soul, "Rise up my love, my fair one, and come away." Then give me grace to rise and follow Thee up from this misty lowland where I have wandered so long." Baaaaah, so good! so fulfilling! so beautiful! I feel like this could have come from my own mouth! Jesus, I'm going to be honest! You aren't the most important thing to me right now. I am so sorry! I'm working on that each and every day! I want you to change my heart Jesus. I'm getting there.. I just have to realize that such a difficult God to see and touch is more tangible and real and fulfilling and pure and good and amazing than any human on this earth! By knowing and understanding and grasping His character we fall more in love with Him so that's what I'm doing! Cause I want to genuinely love Him and KNOW Him! I want to treasure the kingdom of Heaven so much that I'd sell everything in order to get in! Jesus, I love that you are so faithful! So merciful! So love to everyone no matter what! I love that you love music more than I do. I love that Your love never fails, I love that You adore me, delight in me, are satisfied in me! That blows my mind! I love that you love me unconditionally.. always! I love that you never give up on me and you'd never even consider it! I appreciate you! I love your creation. I love Kona!

We need to reshape our minds to this lifestyle:
We've tasted and seen He is good so WHY would be want anything else?

"True Christianity is like a disease; The motivation to overcome sin is the revival of the heart!"

When you understand God's character you want nothing else!

Revival is the church living by Jesus. Get out of the building and LIVE like Jesus. We cannot reform without reviving.

When we live off of gratitude and thanksgiving the world cannot touch us!

You will be what you believe about God!

I feel like I've finally moved out of religion and into relationship! It's the best feeling ever. I'm still working on a relationship and probably will be forever but I'm getting closer every single day!