faith.

I wanna have more faith in the Lord.

The other night I was praying that God would heal my arm/hand. I want to see Him do that to ME! I've seen God heal so many of my friends from various things but I guess I'm struggling with a "see it to believe it" type deal. But maybe God simply wants me to believe it! Believe in Him. TRUST HIM!

So as I was praying I was also reading through Matthew where the Lord heals the blind man, raises the dead man, heals the paralyzed man, etc. And it ALL talked about having faith. The woman believed God could heal her and all she wanted was to touch His cloak and she was healed. I want THAT kind of faith.

"It's not faith if you're using your eyes!" AMEN!

I know the Lord wants to heal me and he can but ultimately I think he wants me to believe in Him and trust Him.

I'm still begging to see God heal me. I would LOVE to see that.
But I know I have to have faith in Him.
I have to.
I can't live my life if I don't trust Him and have faith in what He's doing.
Whether He planned a fractured arm or not, I have to have faith.

Lord,
would you help me to believe, trust and have faith in YOU?  I wanna grow. I want to stretch. How? How do I have more faith? I need child-like faith! If they want it and know they can ask God for it, they do. Without hesitation! And it's a beautiful thing.

Thank you, Lord, for child-like faith!

But I need you, Lord. I do. I need you.
I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do. I simply don't. HELP!