so much change.

it's official.. i'm staying home from college for at least a semester.

it has been so tough. and God is stretching me so much. teaching me to grow in Him. and man, has it worked already. but i have supportive friends, family, and parents (which is most important to me). some ask if i think i'm making the right decision. and to be honest, i don't know. but because i have my parents on the same page as me, i felt like this is what God wanted, and i can always go back to Belhaven.. the decision is final.

for right now i'll be working at Chick Fil A, babysitting for mom and others, and doing whatever God throws my way. i really hope to work with music and travel. i have a couple of opportunities that i'm extremely interested in. but like i said, it's up to God.

i went to Belhaven yesterday to move out and say bye.
lemme just tell you, it was hard. very, very hard.
i had to tell all my friends i was coming back to school only to leave a couple hours later. i had to explain God's plan for myself.. that wasn't easy. it's hard to explain a situation where it's all in God's hands. i honestly don't know what will happen. i have lots of things that i would LOVE to happen. but we'll just have to see. half the people i wanted to see weren't there. and everyone i did see i just had to say bye and leave. it was hard. but i plan to go visit in a couple weekends, to really say bye. but not for a lifetime, thank God.

anyways, i moved everything into my room (at home). i just have a couple boxes left that i have to go through. hopefully throwing/giving away the majority of it. we'll see how that goes. haha. i'm in the basement and i love being down here alone.. except for at night cause it's extremely scary not even gonna lie. but it's okay, i have Shawn (who's 2 years old) with me. : ) he'll protect me, right? =p i love the set up and the amount of space i have. and i just love being home. why did i find out all of these things that i loved when i was gone? guess you really don't know what you have till it's gone. i've found that to be very true.

my life is a huuuge roller coaster right now. but like a friend said yesterday, "make sure you have your hands up in the air while you're on the roller coaster." my hands are in the air, i'm surrendering this all to God, and learning to trust fully in Him. it's been a good lesson in the process of being learned..?? that was bad grammar, i'm aware. ha.

soo, that's my life in a nutshell.
i'll keep ya updated. just be prayin.

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