"Be still and know that I am God!"

Wow, I have failed at blogging lately. My bad! Life has been completely crazy!

I have soo much going on in my head right now I can tell it's going to be a long blog!
But I'll start with college:
Basically, I got to questioning whether Belhaven is the right school for me this weekend! I went there this weekend and a lot of different things happened in one day! I was SOOO overwhelmed I didn't know what to do or what to think. BUT no worries because I think it was just the Devil getting to me and my parents. I still don't know for sure what God wants; I'm just trying to have open ears and an open mind. So pray for me. Because I'm nervous, scared, worried, all of the above. Belhaven is the only school I've applied to. I have scholarships for it and everything. I love the school it's seems like such a perfect fit for me. I have just been so settled and just waiting to get there. I want to follow God's plan overall so pray that I can listen and follow His plan! Cause the last thing I want to do is stray from God's plan, that wouldn't be good.

I have found so many verses, quotes and song lyrics that I've loved and I wanna share.

"You hold the universe. You hold everyone on earth. You hold the universe. You hold.. You hold. All I need is You. All I need is You Lord.. is You Lord!"

WOAH talk about intense beauty!
I love this song because I know no matter what happens with school and life HE has it all in HIS hands. I don't have to worry. I am your ultimate worrier. I worry about anything and everything. But I know that I don't have to worry. Even if I find out where I'm supposed to go right before a deadline or right before school is over.. who cares cause He is so much more wise than me. He's smarter and He controls everything. it.will.be.okay. I love knowing that. Love it. Cause Christians love to try and think we are smarter than God (at least I know I'm guilty).. aaaand we aren't. He is the one in control and He knows what He's doing, it's as simple as that.

Next piece of encouragement I've found. :)

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does."
James 1:2-8 -- is that not amazing?! Seriously, it's hit just the right spot.

"Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires." James 1:19-20 -- I have failed to be slow to anger with a certain person.. I need to fix that.

Okay get this today in church it was like THE perfect service.
Yesterday a friend of mine told me that when you are in time of need and answers and guidance it's a great idea to fast. You can fast from anything.. anything that will remind you to focus on Him and that will give you time to listen to what He has to say to you. SO.. I thought about that and really took in into consideration then today in church guess what the topic was (sense it's time of lent and all)?? It was, "Fasting: Have a discipline of silence"! I just thought that was so amazing. God really is present and He really does look after you. It's like sense I knew what Donna told me about fasting was a good idea and God just took it to the next level and explained everything to me. So beautiful. Some different things we talked about was how our life is like a jar of river water and if we just let it sit still and let it settle, it will eventually separate. So if we just sit still and give ourselves silence it's amazing what can happen. For a day, just a day, get rid of your cell phone, your music, the internet.. anything that cause chaos in your life. Just for a day and LISTEN to what He has to say. I'm gonna be doing it tomorrow.. just getting rid of internet and focusing on Him.

And GET THIS! The speaker said, "stop trying to determine the outcome and just rely on God." That just hit.the.spot. I'm so bad at that and I've been trying to plan where I'm going to college and when I get to college how I'm going to avoid all the drama and this and that. God is telling me, "Kathryn JUST STOP! Just sit down, be quiet, stop talking, stop worrying and simply trust me." I just love it! I see it and I'm gonna focus on chilling. God wants me to take my eyes off of my millions of circumstances I don't like and just focus on Him. He is in control, He won't leave me hanging. He has it all in His hands. He has a purpose for everything. I'm learning that He's teaching me patience and to trust in Him. Not to trust in myself or a boy or my parents or a youth pastor or a friend but Him! It's not that complicated Kathryn (haha yeahh, I talk to myself in my own blogposts).

Not to mention for lent I decided to fast from negativity. I have to focus on that. I haven't done so well this weekend so God forgive me.

A song we sung today in church said this, "Show me Your ways. My hope is You. Guide me in truth. My hope is You." I love that, that's what I want. I want allllll my hope to be HIM! It's as simple as that. I just take things way out of proportion. And He is teaching me who He really is. : )

Thank you Jesus for being patient with me. Thank you for seeing me somewhat ignore You but NOT giving up on me. Thankyousomuch!

So that's my life within the past weekend.
I know it'll be okay. I know will. No need to stress and give myself more wrinkles. :P